I think your trip sounds amazing! You should be so proud of your commitment to working on everything. Sounds like a few of us in similar positions were fortunate enough to find this site-- I wonder if there's a way we could take another step and form a little online support group for us clingers who are trying the Turtle Method. :) If you ever need another sympathetic ear, I have one, and I think you're doing great, especially being brave enough to use your heart, mind, and tummy as such a good system of checks and balances. That's a great lesson. Sending good thoughts, Sarah